One More Try...

OK, lets just pretend this week didn't really happen.  I can start again next week, but that's it.  No more re-starts.  It is now or never!  Que slow clap getting faster...  I really need to do this.  I need this.  I need and deserve this for myself, don't I?  So many demons, too few weapons!  Both boys are fairly healthy, I have gotten a lot of sleep this week so there is no reason I should not be good to go next week.  Is it this hard for everyone or is there something especially wrong with me?  Why can't I just be one of those people who has boundless energy to do things with.  I just don't get it.  There has to be a better tomorrow. 

Let's Start This Again

OK, let's make two things perfectly clear...The first is that, I love sleep and I really need to get over that.  They say that when you exercise you get more energy, but I need more energy NOW so I can really dive into exercising and running!  Two, I love snacking.  Food is a problem for me and I just don't know how to work past that.  Let's take today for an example...I just had a cup and a half of pasta, and a piece of flat bread for lunch, and I just had some Pirate's Booty.  My new rule...starting with again next week...NO EATING at my desk!  Unless my tummy is growling!  And, next week, come hell or high water (ooohhhh, so dramatic!) I WILL get up every morning as scheduled.  How do I expect to be able to do the Disney Half this fall if I don't get working.  I get so mad at my lazy self, then it makes me feel even more defeated and goal-less.  Ugh...

Week 1 Day 2

Ugh...I love my boys, I really do, but when they are sick it is all over for me!  Brett now has a cold and him coughing all night makes for a Mommy that doesn't get much sleep.  He woke up at 2:30 a.m. coughing and stayed awake until around 5 a.m.  As my alarm was going off around 4:30 he looked like it actually annoyed him.  Nice.  Oh well, there is always tomorrow.  I went to Whole Foods and got more apples, they were on sale for just $.99!  Yay!  Watching Biggest Loser and it is crackin' me up!  Watching them push each other around in wheel barrels is hystarical!  I really do love Jillian!  I wish she was my trainer!  "If you're not failing, you're not trying hard enough."  - Jillian from the Biggest Loser  I didn't make good food choices today.  For breakfast I had two cups of coffee and an apple, lunch was 1/2 a large fry and a big mac wrap and dinner was red beans and rice with ground turkey added to it...and two large glasses of wine.  But, i am looking on the Whole Foods Web site at different recipies.  If anyone has any great ideas, I am more than happy to hear them, though I do subscribe to a blog for healthy meals...I guess I need to spend more time there.  Going to go look for a good food journal.  OK, sticking with MyPlate.  Though I have yet to figure out how how to edit my info, I like the way it tracks your food and gives suggestions and can enter manually or by actual food.  I think those are about all of my thoughts for the night, except...kids are so draining.  Not sure if I am going to go back to my regular sschedule and go to the gym in the a.m. or if I will run.  HAHAHA, finally figured it out!  Now, how to choose the right activity level, is it ideal activity or actual?  Decisions, decisions...I am also doing the Nike walk thing that hooks up to my Nano...so far I have climbed enough to climb the empire state building, only burned like 209 calories, now I am working on burning the calories of a hot dog...unfortunatley that has taken me about 2.5 weeks.  Ugh, no wonder I am so out of shape...  Sweet Dreams!

Week 1-Day-1

COMPLETE FAILURE!!  I totally suck!  Seriously, my first day and I fail to set my alarm to the correct time...idiot.  On the up side, I did eat fairly well today.  Yeah me...half a failure!  So, here I am, proclaiming my fresh new re-start for tomorrow.  The schedule says I should only run (when I say run, I mean that I will most likely being walking quickly gasping for air) just 35 minutes.  That doesn't sound too bad, ease in slowly.  Just to point out in my defesnse though, I do only have 1.5 lungs, so that does prohibit me just a teency!  Alright, that is about the end of my excuses...I will post more as I think of them, did I mention the two small children and how one of them is always sick?  I'm just say'n.  I need to find an online food journal.  I did find one but it is VERY difficult to alter my profile info, if anyone has any ideas I would love to hear them.  :)  Wow, 14 minutes until bed time.  I will do online food journal research tomorrow.  Sweet Dreams!

Pre-Day One

Well, I have tried in 2010 to begin the exercise and training, but have for the most part failed miserably. But, tomorrow starts a new week and I'm all over it! Here is the training schedule I plan on following; go to the gym Monday, Wednesday & Friday. Then run on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. I am basing it out of the book The non-Runner's Marathon Guide For Women by Dawn Dais. Her book is really funny and it had a lot of great information. Her schedule for training for both the full and half marathon is running four days, but I only want to run three...mistake? I guess we'll see. So, early to bed so I can get up around 4:30 a.m. to go to the gym before work. Her schedule also only gives a person one cross-training day and two rest days. So, I am going to look around at other schedules but will loosly follow her's. Sweet dreams...

The Beginning

In the beginning there was man...ugh, really? OK in my beginning, I guess I could say there was a man also...I fell in love with him, gained a bunch of weight, looked dreadful on my wedding day (thankfully at the time I didn't realize it)then gave birth to his two beautiful little boys. It is safe to say that I have always been overweight, and I am guessing by the looks of things that I always will be. But, shortly after I had Brady (our first son who was born 04/19/06) I decided I wanted to be a runner. Well, I finish his first year and just try to cling to a normal life as a new Mom who is also working full time. Then, when Brady turned 2 I found out I was pregnant with our second child, another boy. Brett was born 12/01/08. He is now a year old and I am done nursing him. Those pesky professionals and experts who say that breast feeding speeds up your metabolism...they are NOT lying...Ugh, I was down to 162 pounds (which is AWESOME for me!) now that I have been done nursing for nearly two months, I have gained 20 pounds...What is that crap all about. I hate this phrase but here goes..."THAT'S NOT FAIR!!!" So, now I need to start running not only because I have really always wanted to, but I need to. I just can't go back to my pre-baby weight of 200 pounds. I don't want to be a fat/out-of-shpe wife and Mom, I want to be able to buy clothes at any store and have them look good.

So, here we are. My first blog entry...here is what to expect in the future. My thoughts on food; which I am trying to learn more about and use properly, exercise; my struggles with getting to the gym around 5 a.m. on M-W-F and then running in my neighborhood on T-R-J. And the occasional rant about trying to buy a house in a good neighborhood with good schools :).

SO - Here are some of my starting stats
Height - 5'6"
Weight - 182 lbs
I will post my measurements as soon as I find my tape measure, it's probably hiding out of self defense!