One More Try...

OK, lets just pretend this week didn't really happen.  I can start again next week, but that's it.  No more re-starts.  It is now or never!  Que slow clap getting faster...  I really need to do this.  I need this.  I need and deserve this for myself, don't I?  So many demons, too few weapons!  Both boys are fairly healthy, I have gotten a lot of sleep this week so there is no reason I should not be good to go next week.  Is it this hard for everyone or is there something especially wrong with me?  Why can't I just be one of those people who has boundless energy to do things with.  I just don't get it.  There has to be a better tomorrow.